Is this Safe?

LOL…..

just cant stop laughing….lol…..dunno why….im INSANE!!!

nways…..gotta new blog ad….its www.kchi1992.blogspot.com……so jack….change ur link la…..lol….lol….

This year…..i have been reminded countless of times of my PMR results….. feels like echos of a ghost from the past that just won’t stop disturbing you….. first there was mark…..he was all jolly with having 5A’s for PMR(which is an A’s less than me)…..his pompous and realistic sense of sarcasm with a tinge of reality hit me….stabbed me….whichever….. he said: u see kai chi….u took 4 months off from children church….and what is your result? 6A’s only……i in the other hand took only one week off and what have i got? 5 juicy A’s………..if he wasnt my childhood mate i’d clobber him already…….but all i can do is just smile sheephishly….

than there was the children church team which somehow took a more polite approach than mark…….all they said was: 6A’s only ah? okok not bad……and yet again….i smiled and took all the shame…..

than there comes mummy…….when i first got my result i felt so depressed….feeling that i was not good enough…..feeling i let down loads of hopeful hearts expecing me to have at least 7A’s…..mum comforted me and said it was ok……all that happened last year…..this year however…..she remembered that jia wei(the favourite-popular-welcomed cousin of mine) will be taking his PMR…..mum just have to say this: U see la jia wei……he will be very hardworking wan…..not like my eldest la…..lazy….his chinese can get A wan….bm also….see….he lazy….thats why he have only 6….thats why the relatives all also dont feel like givin him any reward………….u see la…jia wei sure get straight wan……………………………………….wow, that hurts…..a lot……

that why i’ll tell you…..when you’ve made people think you’re a smart fella….you’d better work extra hard…..i can tell you i’m regretting every part of it……..when people asks you how many A’s you’re expecting….never give them a straight answer…..say dunno……people ask why are you not free…never say you wanna study……

if not…..you’ll be like me…..smiling in humiliation……regrettin horribly…..hating the fruits of labour you’ve worked hard for……hating your efforts…..which leads to me…starting to hate myself….lamenting that i should have worked harder…..

i should’ve worked harder….

its all my own fault….

i can blame no one…

Cant believe this happening again! Why….Why does God wanna send me back to the dark ages….why ….why cant the stupid celcom broadband fix the problem and let me connect!!!

i thought i would get used to it….yet…no…..i cant…the feeling of only having one means of communication is torturing….its like im being locked in the cage all over again!….HELP ME!!!

hhmmm 2day is sunday….hhmmm….what  i do….hmm…lets see…

i serve in the worship team for the first time(likely to be the last) and i invoke the rage of sis. york ling…..yeap…..there we go….apparently this lead bro.cal to go talk to her and now he thinks whether its a good thing for me to CONCENTRATE in the children church ministry….which means….worship team minus kai chi….yeap…but thats ok…..i guess

then i read my phone’s inbox….apparently peiyin sms-ed me and asked whether i was lying about helping her get a korean language teacher because someone told her that…..how dare that person said that…..i can’t believe that this is happening…..its like there is a very big chance that there will lots more people that hate me not to mention about people who are already hell-bent on destrying my life in school( right allan? )…peiyin….why? just say la that you don’t trust me…..haiz….what’s wrong? Just because the korean teacher didnt contact you YET then you start thinking that i’m lying to you is it? or is it another person wanting to destroy my relationship with people…..who the hell is it !!!??

really wished i could disappear just like that and start a new leaf in life in a place where no one knows me…you know that teleportation power superheroes have? yea…thats like a one-stop-fix-all-problem kinda solution….food? teleport into a bank vault and nick all the money out of it…..place to stay…same…..Job? with this power…stealing will be that occupation…lol…..i’m startin to crap AGAIN!

its like everywhere i go i’m like the non-stop crapper….church? I’m like the crapper that so happens to be very good with children and sings…..school? I’m still the crapper/prefect/dog/gangster lookin prefect…..home? my mom says im talking lots of rubbish….haiz…is this what i am destined to be? A crapper?

And theres still people who over-estimated me…who thought all so highly of me…..Jason for example….he thought that i can go become a YOUTH LEADER!!! OMGoodness……there is KCY who sarcastically asked me whether i wanna be on EXCO member of the prefectorial board…half my mind was like screamin "if i ever become an EXCO…the school will crumble into bits"……

haiz….can’t bear to write anymore….i’m "suppposed" to be a strong-willed fella…..yeah right…

Vin tsen and I sat down at a cafe today….we talked…chatted……then….this plan…or rather vision for Form 5 sprang up…..

We plan to move out of our houses right after school starts…where u ask? well….we found some low-cost flats for rent…..fully furnished….rental:RM 200++……IF we could get about 2 more people to move in with us….

Why? ok….here…are the pros

1. Lift the financial burden of parents…why? because i dont need to waste RM 100 for the monthly lrt pass for the flat is near my school
2. if i can get more people then the rent will be split among us all
3. breakfast? at skool la(cheap ma) lunch?(skool oso la) dinner?(there are VERY cheap restaurants)
4. study? spm?(the place have no tv, no computer;if we dont study…what will we do?)
5. important football matches? got mamak ma….
6. school project? haiz…vintsen got laptop….i got broadband/handphone to go online ma
7. its very near school…so i dont need to wake up at 530 am to make it for prefects duty
8. sleeping space?(if there is 5 sharin this flat…4 people will sleep the 2 rooms….im willing to sleep in the living room)

soo….any MBSians or anyone else interested to follow the same step as me and rent a flat and move in? contact me la…..

wow…..i really have no idea how to begin this….ok…let’s see

ok….this morning….i woke up later than usual…..literally zoomed my way to the lrt and ALMOST got to school just in time…till i remembered its prefects’ day……s**t!…..i was half way to the entrance till i remembered about it….which means i don’t have my formal uniform on….legendary day…

at had to make a decision…go home and ge the uniform….or face embarassment from students and not to mention the everlasting flames of KCY…….so flew home….took a couple of detours to make sure no one notices me….got home and realised that if i go to school now…..i’ll be late….then i’ll still have to face KCY’s fire….hhmmm….decision? stay at home duh……just hope mum doesn’t ask……

so….what am i doing now u ask? erm….lets see…..blogging(obviously)…doing revision(the world is coming to an end)….hhmmm….planning on an excuse too…hehe…i’m doomed X(

2008…..will it be great……who knows……

really……felt like I’m back to 2007……felt weird…..felt strange yet familiar…..well, what da heck…..

this year I’m placed into 4Kensett, THIS CLASS ROCKS!!!! haha…..really….every year since i was 7… i was placed in the smartest(don’t mean to brag or anything)and NOISIEST class….and everytime, i always sit with the same bunch of lame jokers…..YEA!! how much saliva and stamina have we wasted to crack non-sensical jokes…..much to the delight of very annoyed classmates…sorry guys…we just can’t help it…..

then there comes the school fees….well I’m not trying to sound like a parent or something BUT the fees are ridiculous…..well who am i to complain about it so much…….and we haven’t got our text books yet….weird huh?

teachers….hhhmmm…….physics teacher Mr.L is a great teacher…and also a great crapper who leaves the whole class applauding him after every sentence….which has nothing to do with physics….LOL…..only till the last 6 minutes of the class then he starts gettibg down to business……..Pn.J is our BM teacher and our class teacher….sweet teacher….scary sometimes BUT we’ll love her…..eventually…then comes the sejarah teacher(can’t remember whats her name)short lady who specialises in english…..we’re done for….

Ah….prefectorial board….sweet board…why make me angry….haizz…….1st day was okay…….then come the second day where KCY….you just have to ask me to ruin MY OWN HAIR!!! why…..why can’t it wait…..just 1 day….haizz…..then there’s the annual cleanup……no comments on that(because i wasn’t there, hehe) and at loong last…..i have my own locker….my very own locker…..how excited i am…..i have no idea what to store in there BUT nevertheless……i have my own locker….

so far….so good(you think?) hope this year turns out to be MUCH MUCH better than last year…..God, save me…..

muahaha….party-goers strikes again!!  NEW YEAR!! PARTYY!!! MORE!!!

first i hav 2 meet up with tuck seng, amanda, and samuel at the station….mother as always wanna potong steam….called and ask LOADS of questions…

then we reached sg wang which was like crowded…..and I LOVE IT!! party….spray….laugh…lol! its like crowded with fun…..then we walked 2 pavillion and sat down at a bakery and ate delicious stuff…..then the posers start to posses us….hehe….then it started 2 RAIN!!! wow…its like one of da most beautiful rain….hehe….

then came da countdown…..it was like one of da most beautiful sounds ever heard….then da fireworks…wow….speechless….then there was party everywhere…planet hollywood, starhill u name it…..we went in to check every party we see…hehe……btw, lots and lots of couples go kissing…lol….its like one of those mass weddings…..until i see a gay couple kissing…YUX!!

then while goin home….we have 2 pass-by warzones…lol…..i’ll post photos 4 u guys 2 enjoy…lol

To be sad, or not to be sad…..

I struggle thru this question the whole day when i got da results of only 6A 2B

Why should I be happy:

1. I got 6A 1 B…..which is quite an achievement…

2.I’m gonna get rewards….

3.God gave me this…

Why should I be sad:

1. Let down loads of ppl hu tot i’ll get all A’s

2.I’m unsatisfied…

3. I wanna be better…

4. I suck….

5. I want to shine…

6. I can’t beat up that yoonfatt…haizz

7. People who  got better will mock me….still i hate it

8. i wanna mock people hu got worse results than i do ….muahaha

9. i wanna prove that i’m smart too

conclusion:

i should now go cry my head off and my heart out…..possibilities of suicide is quite high…..soo…people of malaysia …tmrw morning u might see the shocking news of 15 year old boy commited suicide because of 6A 2b….lol

PMR results are coming out! one day….just one day….will determine my freedom…..

im too freaked out to say anything more….